I honestly don't know what to say. I read this because of Kendra and because I've always had a soft spot for ChanHo.
This is really beautiful. Like I cried so much, like really cried. I was at work (during a break) and I was trying so hard to be discreet about it because if my staff saw me, well that would've been embarrassing. Lol.
This is beautiful because your words and your writing really hits the spot. It's not colorful and flowery. I like how you wrote it straight to the point and very emotionally that even when things were happy I just continued crying.
I really felt for Junmyeon. In a way, I felt I could relate because, while I may not be as hardworking or as caring as he is, I know what it's like to keep things to yourself, to pretend that everything's okay and try to fix things without help from anyone. Like him, I feel like it's my business and I don't want to be an inconvenience to anyone because everyone as problems and there's no need for mine to add to theirs. And because admitting something scary, something that you know will change your life and can change how people look at you... ;;; That really hit me hard and I just really appreciated the fact that he had Jongdae and Jongin and, eventually Baekhyun. I was glad that there were people who constantly looked out for him and were always ready and sometimes pushed for him to speak up.
Your Chanyeol. /sighs/ Chanyeol. His character seemed so simple, but I knew there's so much more to him. There was so much going on with him underneath the surface, his wealth, his family, business, his path in life, his girlfriend, expectations, etc. And yet, wow he was such a ray of sunshine. I know that, like he said, he's never really had it hard in his life, but having to keep who he really is in his heart and going through the motions like he has everything he's ever wanted... he's just like Junmyeon in that respect. ;;;
I love how they go together. The slow progression to friendship and to maybe something more. There's the subtle flirting that I wondered in the beginning if whether Chanyeol actually knew what he was doing. Lol. There was a point where I thought he was just naturally that way. I felt bad when he said he had a girlfriend and I wanted to hug Junmyeon. And then there was that moment by the woods that really shed light on everything.
You know I actually wasn't sure whether they'd end up together. I was nearing the end and they were still pretending and I was crying because omg I don't want to be sad for the rest of the day because Chanyeol and Suho didn't end up with each other. >< And then I thought they were going to start sneaking around and I didn't want that either. :( But those things made this all the more realistic because not every love story lasts forever and sometimes it really just ends because certain things aren't meant to be. (I'm depressing myself.) I cried when they ended up together and I wanted to hug someone because happy ending!
I got teary-eyed just by writing this whole comment. Lol. I'm too emotional.
I really, really loved this. This is the third EXO fic that had me a sobbing mess and I'm really glad I read this. My ChanHo feels are endless and you just made it grow more.
Thank you for writing this for Kendra and for sharing your talent. ♥
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This is really beautiful. Like I cried so much, like really cried. I was at work (during a break) and I was trying so hard to be discreet about it because if my staff saw me, well that would've been embarrassing. Lol.
This is beautiful because your words and your writing really hits the spot. It's not colorful and flowery. I like how you wrote it straight to the point and very emotionally that even when things were happy I just continued crying.
I really felt for Junmyeon. In a way, I felt I could relate because, while I may not be as hardworking or as caring as he is, I know what it's like to keep things to yourself, to pretend that everything's okay and try to fix things without help from anyone. Like him, I feel like it's my business and I don't want to be an inconvenience to anyone because everyone as problems and there's no need for mine to add to theirs. And because admitting something scary, something that you know will change your life and can change how people look at you... ;;; That really hit me hard and I just really appreciated the fact that he had Jongdae and Jongin and, eventually Baekhyun. I was glad that there were people who constantly looked out for him and were always ready and sometimes pushed for him to speak up.
Your Chanyeol. /sighs/ Chanyeol. His character seemed so simple, but I knew there's so much more to him. There was so much going on with him underneath the surface, his wealth, his family, business, his path in life, his girlfriend, expectations, etc. And yet, wow he was such a ray of sunshine. I know that, like he said, he's never really had it hard in his life, but having to keep who he really is in his heart and going through the motions like he has everything he's ever wanted... he's just like Junmyeon in that respect. ;;;
I love how they go together. The slow progression to friendship and to maybe something more. There's the subtle flirting that I wondered in the beginning if whether Chanyeol actually knew what he was doing. Lol. There was a point where I thought he was just naturally that way. I felt bad when he said he had a girlfriend and I wanted to hug Junmyeon. And then there was that moment by the woods that really shed light on everything.
You know I actually wasn't sure whether they'd end up together. I was nearing the end and they were still pretending and I was crying because omg I don't want to be sad for the rest of the day because Chanyeol and Suho didn't end up with each other. >< And then I thought they were going to start sneaking around and I didn't want that either. :( But those things made this all the more realistic because not every love story lasts forever and sometimes it really just ends because certain things aren't meant to be. (I'm depressing myself.) I cried when they ended up together and I wanted to hug someone because happy ending!
I got teary-eyed just by writing this whole comment. Lol. I'm too emotional.
I really, really loved this. This is the third EXO fic that had me a sobbing mess and I'm really glad I read this. My ChanHo feels are endless and you just made it grow more.
Thank you for writing this for Kendra and for sharing your talent. ♥
(I am terribly sorry for this comment.)
- Frances